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Maybe I’m a dreamer

If I want it all to be just as perfect as it can get in all the possible conditions, am I the dreamer? I think I am. I may be a dreamer though, but I’m far from helpless romantic. I was once. But now it’s gone. Life happened.

Maybe I’m misunderstood

I don’t know if you have ever understood me, dear reader. If we have ever been talking for real or if you have ever seen me somewhere else than here. I’m not even sure whether my second half understands me for at least most of the times.

Maybe you’re not seing the side of me you should

Most of my friends think I’m a nice person. The ones that see me only in virtual world may think I’m strong and full of self-confidence. But they’re wrong. I’m a bad person. I’m insecure. I’m complicated. And right now I’m scared. I’m just a little scared…

Maybe I’m crazy

Not maybe. I’m crazy as hell. The problem is… I may be scared to do something wrong. Or be just too crazy. Overcrazy. I’ve just invented a new word. Cool.

Maybe I’m the only one

I really hope I am. And I really hope I will stay that way to You…

Maybe I’m just out of touch

I miss the closeness of the person. Such closeness when I can feel one’s heartbeat while being skin on skin.

Maybe I’ve just had enough

Enough of what? Waiting? Being this way? This won’t change anything inside me. Or…will it?

Maybe it’s time to change
Leave it all behind
I’ve never been the one to walk alone
I’ve always been scared to try.
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
Nothing stays the same
Maybe it’s time to change

Why do I think that this may be wrong? Is it because of the short time? Or maybe because of the fear to be left alone? I know it’s not gonna be that way. He is not like that. But yet. I’ve always been so scared, and, though I am so scared now as well, I know I want this more than I have ever wanted anything. And I will overcome this fear.

Maybe it’s hopeless

I don’t know. Is it the worst idea ever? Somehow I really don’t think so.

Maybe I should just give up

You know, maybe I really should, but the point is..I don’t want to.

What if I can’t trust myself?

I’ve never did. I’ve always been scared and I will always be until I’ll try. And I think this is the right person for this. Love and trust is what I need. And I’m full of it.

What if I just need some help?

If You are reading this today or tomorrow till it’s not “post factum”, please… Help me. I need your help in this. Your confidence in me. Your love. Your understanding.
It’s gonna be fine. I love You.


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